My first deck of divination cards (for lack of a better way to say it) was a Rider Waite tarot.  I studied the tarot on and off starting when I was 13.  It was a great curiousity of mine but I didn’t enjoy it as much as I’d hoped I would.  When I turned 30 I discovered the Lenormand and re-discovered the Zigeuner (a woman had read for me with the deck when I was in my late 20’s).  I was frustrated by the lack of literature and often felt like I was struggling to read with them.  Couple this with my decision to attempt to learn three or four card systems at once while planning a wedding (the cards were supposed to be my sanity) and I wound up walking away for a few years.  

When I returned I was thrilled to learn that several books and courses had become available in English, and I began my studies in earnest.  Eventually I made the decision to read for people which lasted for a short while before I decided a break was in order.

One of the things that I noticed was that I began to miss the tarot, specifically my Rider Waite deck.  For some reason just holding it brought me great comfort.  So I figure I might take it out ever so often and use it.  I have once thrown Tarot cards in conjunction with Lenormand (a method that Sylvie Steinbeck suggests) which has proven helpful – particularly when I am very stumped.  But I digress.

This is the Transparent Tarot.  I became aware of it while reading one the forums over at Aeclectic tarot.  I had pre-ordered it in July and was planning to put off the purchase, but it shipped before I canceled it.  It’s a beautiful deck and a very innovative idea which was why it interested me.  I threw 9 cards – 3 for past, 3 for present and 3 for future in a layer:

 

8 Sw, XIV, 2Pn/Kn Sw, Pg Pn, 3 Wn/II, Pg Sw, XII

8 Sw, XIV, 2Pn/Kn Sw, Pg Pn, 3 Wn/II, Pg Sw, XII

Past: 8 Swords, Temperance, 2 Pentacles:

The 8 of swords is reflective of how I was feeling – confused and overwhelmed.  Both Temperence and the 2 pentacles show my desire for balance and harmony.

Present: Knight of Swords, Page of Pentacles, 3 of wands:  

It seems part of mastery for me will be to reign in the more tactless aspects of my personality.  This is also something that I’ve been struggling with recently and have battled the better portion of my adult life.  The truth can indeed set us free, but it can get ugly before we are released.  How do you deliver the truth when it will cut?  It seems that the rewards for learning how to better cope will be great, and I should continue to study this.  I say study intentionally because of the page of pentacles.  The pentacles for me bring this out of the realm of though and into the more tangible world – putting things into practice.

Future: High Priestess, The Hanged Man, Page of Swords

It seems more challanges are coming my way (what a surprise, lol) as heralded by the page of Swords.  If I look at the imagery it gives me the sense that I am in the cocoon (hanged man) and that I will soon emerge now holding some secret knowledge that I’ve learned while resting.  I will be transformed.  Being the High Priestess is in the background I can’t help but feel that I will somehow wind up in better touch with my intuition – something I tend to be quite fearful of (and the page is quite appropriate here again, I stand with my sword drawn in my own protection).  Maybe it’s time to put the sword down and stop holding myself back.

Not ironically, the next card on my deck happened to be the Ace of Wands.

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