Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

Oh, many have there been for us as of late!

Since losing my job I suffered a brief but nasty illness and started learning how to be a bookkeeper again – something I had trained for when I was offered the job I lost and what I had originally hoped to do.  In a way, it was like taking a nearly 11 year detour.  It was quite a blow as I had always been taught by both of my parents to be an independent person and capable of supporting myself.  Submitting more fully to the integration of a marriage, becoming a full time home-maker and parent is shocking and difficult, but the timing is perfect.  It will afford me to be more active in assisting my son and in getting the house prepared so we can re-locate.  Everything happens for a reason.  Change is often difficult to embrace when it conflicts with the ego, but it is easier to embrace change if you see it as an opportunity rather than a hindrance.

Now it seems my husband is about to go through a change.  I often marvel at my husband’s resilience and his calm and steady demeanor.  In the last two years he has seen and survived four layoffs at his job.  The next one (which we believe will be very soon) will be the deepest cut, and we are concerned about his job this time more than we ever were in the past.  I have asked several friends and family members for their good energy and prayers.  Everything is in God’s hands, and what will come is what is meant for us.  Of course, as a card reader it is difficult to avoid the potential insights of my craft so I decided to throw some cards.

This throw is based on a spread, and I usually don’t care for them.  As a limited person in many ways it is difficult for me to interpret cards in different formations which is why I always tend to use lines.  This spread happens to be linear which appealed to me.  You can find it at the wonderful forum The Art of Cartomancy.  The spread itself is here.  I would suggest checking it out prior to reading the rest of the post (and I hope to add more to it so that I can explain more coherently, but time is not my friend when I write, lol).  My cards were as follows:

(dog) (coffin) 

 

Ugh!  Missing images!  Will have to update those too…

 

The three cards behind the whip (which is the center card, placed over the “anchor” for work) are the recent past.  Interestingly enough, the dog which often refers to friends and can be about loyalty is quite well placed.  The reason for our concern had to do with an uncomfortable conversation (which is indicated by the whips) about my husband’s loyalties to the company.  The mountain is perplexing coupled with the clover.  It almost gives the feeling that luck is running out.  It also makes me think of an incident where my husband had tried to shield a friend from some short term bad luck at work.  I wonder if this will have something to do with the decision.

The whips also impart a feeling of controversy.  That’s not so hard to understand given the environment, and my understanding is that this layoff will be bad because the people who are left are all hard working and very good at what they do.  The fox indicates a deception and the coffin in particular is very concerning.  I could read this two ways – firstly that the assurance that my husband was given during his conversation was done so in bad faith and that either he or someone he was assured was safe is not.  The coffin can be a scare or an ending.  Because I am asking about his job, I worry it is the latter.  With the tree at the end however, I wonder if it is a brief thing and that whatever happens will offer him some growth (tree).  The coffin can signify a transformation so we may wind up with a little more stability.  That would be nice.

 

If you mirror the cards and use those combinations (think of folding the line in half with the whip as the center) you get the combinations of clover + tree – little luck offers stability or growth, mountain + coffin – this could go two ways, a great enemy (mountain) is defeated (coffin) *or* we are blocked (mountain) from a fright or ending (coffin) and that a friend it truly a foe (dog + fox).  Interesting indeed.

I am curious to see how this pans out.  Until then, I need some rest

*Update*

My husband’s job was safe and several people we know were let go.  I’m still waiting to see if he will be afforded some growth as a result of this process.  He’s out of town on a business trip so we shall see what happens when he returns.

Changes

Much to my incredible shock, this past Friday I became another statistic of the economy. I lost my job of 11 years. It was really quite shocking and I was not expecting it at all.

After I calmed down a bit I decided to do a Shustah throw so I could get a feel for what comes next for me. I only did a three card throw (still very much an amateur with the Shustah), and here it is:

Position 1 (Premise) Red Five: The Black Cat. Red cards signify adversity, troubles, severity and disappointment. The Black cat additionally warns of danger or treachery. There is also the suggestion of awareness. What is most interesting about this card is that it came up for me several times in the last few months when I asked questions about my job. And, when I had woken up yesterday morning I had quipped that it would be odd to wake up and not have a job. I don’t know what made me think such a thing, but as I know now the timing was rather appropriate. I did feel betrayed because of the manner of my dismissal – I had been a long term employee with a very good reputation. I was dismissed over the phone with 11 other employees/friends and we were offered no explanation or indication if we would receive anything more that 1/2 a weeks pay.

Position 2 (The problem or situation) Yellow Three: The Butterflies. Yellow cards signify creativity, gain and spiritual awareness. The Butterflies suggest a temporary situation that ends in breakdown due to lack of foundation. It also suggests a short duration of time. A change of no permanent value. So I would imagine that I will benefit from this dismissal and that any hardships will be a short duration. I also had two people suggest to me that it was possible I would be re-hired after all the dust cleared. Being one of the messages associated with this card is also letting go, I am not sure this will come to pass or that if it did it would be beneficial to me to accept.

Position 3 (The result) Blue Ten: The Stars. Blue cards signify benignancy, serenity and constructive endeavor. The Stars advise to accept advantages offered, and to receive gracefully as well as give. Favorable business. Holding the attitude that hopes will be realized. Again, I get the feeling that I won’t have to worry too much about my unemployment because I will have opportunities.

I was fortunate to have the insight of a wise friend on this reading, and he suggested that on a spiritual level that this change to my life was something I likely was aware of and was something that I had agreed to.  I believe that to be the case.  So now I have plenty of time to devote to new pursuits.  I suppose  I can take up card reading and writing again